homesick?
7:01 p.m.
so i've been lynnless this weekend. it's been fine. i love having her around, but i'm glad she's got the chance to see melbs.
she says it kind of kicks syd's ass. i believe her - likely heaps less metros, and heaps better music.
but, we're missing each other. it's weird, being so far away from our comfort zones allows us to appreciate each other.
i'll be stuffed when she leaves. i know we're gonna keep in touch mighty good with each other, but to have goon-induced heart to hearts is something i will miss dearly.
i feel so out of the loop with the tdot. i haven't talked to andrew for ages... and heaps of shit has hit the ceiling. i miss him, and i'm stoked on chilling with him and getting all normal once i get back.
ahhhh.
i don't know why i'm so homesick right now. knowing how i'm missed/how my presence would make a more positive difference makes me really want to be there.
but i have to stay here for myself. i put a deposit on a room in bondi where i will be moving on my birthday! i dont think anyone can understand how stoked i am for that. fuck... i thought living in the city would be sweet. it's convenient, but not ideal when nobody else lives here.
but to be by the ocean... normally i get anxious as when i have long periods of time with nothing to do... but to have a oceanview... i could be stuffed if i have only like 5 hours of work per week. aaaand i also got cable finally! as adequate as free-to-air is, i'm gonna love watching more trash tv! yay!
so the earliest i will leave is aug 17. but i'll likely stay a week longer. i really need to get a steadier job though.
promo is fine for now, while i'm going to school. but i'm not dealing well with the shifts i'm getting right now as they're all solo assignments. i wasn't too aware of it before, but i get anxious as when i have to work on my own. especially for like 4 hours straight in a hizzideous uniform. i'm too embarrassed to describe it, and i dont embarrass easily...
so today, instead of doing my shift cuz i was running late and got lost, i engaged in retail therapy instead. was able to buy 2 pants, tights and 2 tops for only $31! they're shitty as quality, but i dont give a shit. at least i wont have to worry about taking them back home.
aand, i can't forget... i ran into b. so fucking random. he works at the mall i was stationed in today.
i was pretty much stopped dead in my tracks when i saw him at the music store, had no clue really that he worked there. and it was great cuz i looked like shit.
but timing actually worked for me in that instance - he was just getting on his break so i chatted with him over oporto's. not the ideal reunion, as i was anxious as fuck over work. i was a little bit hysterical. but we all know it's pretty funny when little nikki gets off on a big rant, so at least it was more entertaining and less awkward. we're gonna chill this wednesday after i meet with greta. relax by the beach maybe. who knows?
at least with this planned, i could look less like shit and more like cute :) ...we'll see how that goes.
so yeah, while interesting things can happen when i miss a shift, i'd rather work in a place that i can actually stand showing up to every single shift. it doesnt take too much as long as i have at least one other teammate. so i reckon i might try a cafe job or even bar.
i have another interview on tuesday, and hopefully that can give me more group assignments. god, i interview so well. like it's amazing how well i can sell myself.
and it's not that i'm lying. but it's a little bit selective when my good qualities can shine. like today for example, they were awol. as soon as i stepped into the mall, i panicked. it's hard for people to relate to, i know. but i just couldnt do it.
not that i was being a baby. i just would rather not go crazy, thanks. and that's not hyperbole.
oh, the place i am interviewing for is hiring for a recruitment assistant. i'd be sweet as at that. maybe i can see what i can get out of that!
jesus.
i really hope my care package from pete arrives soon. lynn gave me some canadian paraphenelia in the form of shot glasses and a magnet, but i'd like something i can wear out to broadcast my canadianness. yeah i vain. whatever.
haha there's this guy on rove who has amazing rants just like me. i'm sorta gonna miss aussie tv.
time to not think about negative things now.
cheers mates.
she says it kind of kicks syd's ass. i believe her - likely heaps less metros, and heaps better music.
but, we're missing each other. it's weird, being so far away from our comfort zones allows us to appreciate each other.
i'll be stuffed when she leaves. i know we're gonna keep in touch mighty good with each other, but to have goon-induced heart to hearts is something i will miss dearly.
i feel so out of the loop with the tdot. i haven't talked to andrew for ages... and heaps of shit has hit the ceiling. i miss him, and i'm stoked on chilling with him and getting all normal once i get back.
ahhhh.
i don't know why i'm so homesick right now. knowing how i'm missed/how my presence would make a more positive difference makes me really want to be there.
but i have to stay here for myself. i put a deposit on a room in bondi where i will be moving on my birthday! i dont think anyone can understand how stoked i am for that. fuck... i thought living in the city would be sweet. it's convenient, but not ideal when nobody else lives here.
but to be by the ocean... normally i get anxious as when i have long periods of time with nothing to do... but to have a oceanview... i could be stuffed if i have only like 5 hours of work per week. aaaand i also got cable finally! as adequate as free-to-air is, i'm gonna love watching more trash tv! yay!
so the earliest i will leave is aug 17. but i'll likely stay a week longer. i really need to get a steadier job though.
promo is fine for now, while i'm going to school. but i'm not dealing well with the shifts i'm getting right now as they're all solo assignments. i wasn't too aware of it before, but i get anxious as when i have to work on my own. especially for like 4 hours straight in a hizzideous uniform. i'm too embarrassed to describe it, and i dont embarrass easily...
so today, instead of doing my shift cuz i was running late and got lost, i engaged in retail therapy instead. was able to buy 2 pants, tights and 2 tops for only $31! they're shitty as quality, but i dont give a shit. at least i wont have to worry about taking them back home.
aand, i can't forget... i ran into b. so fucking random. he works at the mall i was stationed in today.
i was pretty much stopped dead in my tracks when i saw him at the music store, had no clue really that he worked there. and it was great cuz i looked like shit.
but timing actually worked for me in that instance - he was just getting on his break so i chatted with him over oporto's. not the ideal reunion, as i was anxious as fuck over work. i was a little bit hysterical. but we all know it's pretty funny when little nikki gets off on a big rant, so at least it was more entertaining and less awkward. we're gonna chill this wednesday after i meet with greta. relax by the beach maybe. who knows?
at least with this planned, i could look less like shit and more like cute :) ...we'll see how that goes.
so yeah, while interesting things can happen when i miss a shift, i'd rather work in a place that i can actually stand showing up to every single shift. it doesnt take too much as long as i have at least one other teammate. so i reckon i might try a cafe job or even bar.
i have another interview on tuesday, and hopefully that can give me more group assignments. god, i interview so well. like it's amazing how well i can sell myself.
and it's not that i'm lying. but it's a little bit selective when my good qualities can shine. like today for example, they were awol. as soon as i stepped into the mall, i panicked. it's hard for people to relate to, i know. but i just couldnt do it.
not that i was being a baby. i just would rather not go crazy, thanks. and that's not hyperbole.
oh, the place i am interviewing for is hiring for a recruitment assistant. i'd be sweet as at that. maybe i can see what i can get out of that!
jesus.
i really hope my care package from pete arrives soon. lynn gave me some canadian paraphenelia in the form of shot glasses and a magnet, but i'd like something i can wear out to broadcast my canadianness. yeah i vain. whatever.
haha there's this guy on rove who has amazing rants just like me. i'm sorta gonna miss aussie tv.
time to not think about negative things now.
cheers mates.
Kick some negative thought ASS!