done done dooonnnnnnnnnneeeee
9:24 p.m.
nikki is done her classes at uts. done. no more classes. yeah maybe a 50% doco due tues, but officially no more classes.
!!!!
so it's winter now. at 16 to 19ish degrees. yeah man. cold shit.
i've been shivering in bed before i go to sleep. needing to use a comforter and all.
but my most important discovery today - my heater!!
now i know how the cavemen felt when they discovered fire.
it's so warm, it melts the icicles of my cold, frigid soul.
fuck, i'm gonna take a moment to stand by it right now.
...
oh god yeah that was good.
fucking oath.
crazy that it's winter but. all the people back home are breaking out the shirts and shorts, it's gonna get ass humid in toronto... cottage season. all that summer stuff.
oh well. i got the beach. i got australia. i got my internship and my job at the shack. and i got a pretty cute winter jacket. not gonna lie, i'm pretty cute in it. a consolation to having to wear that extra layer.
these steadier jobs will be good in helping make a bigger basegroup of friends. marc's leaving sunday. anj is leaving in a month. all i'll have is asa and patrick. and my aussie friends when they decide they can fit me in their lives. not trying to be bitter, but only travellers can understand each other's sitches - trying to make friends in some sort of desperation. hopefully some band can adopt me as the cute tambourine girl. or triangle girl. yeah that'd be better... less responsibility.
i just wanna be happy here. i reckon the beach will help. some sort of regularity in schedule and income should help immensely. esp after may raped me and took my wallet.
i mean, i've made about a grand a month since i've been here, and it's all been pissed away with my antics with lynn. not that i regret anything. we had chill times. times of our lives. but shit son, it's gonna take a while to rebuild. hopefully i can balance everything, what with my mum visiting me and all. yeah i spelled it the aussie way.
but yeah, as trite as it sounds, i really just wanna be happy. this last week has seen me stressed as. first having lynn leave. i don't do well with goodbyes :( ...and then having 50%, 60% and 25% worth of marks due. on top of everything, i've been sick. head cold, and chronic neck pains and tension headaches. all of which actually might have been a result of my stress. stupid psychosomatic symptoms.
it should go away next week, yeah i'm repeating myself.
i also want everyone at home to be happy. i've been told i'm not missing much in toronto by being here. but i do miss being able to chill with the peeps i love. i know everyone's lives are going on without me--time isn't standing still, and i'm not gonna be able to return to the way it was when i left canada. i just hope i can adapt and people will let me back in. i haven't forgotten about anyone, i hope i'm not forgotten either.
!!!!
so it's winter now. at 16 to 19ish degrees. yeah man. cold shit.
i've been shivering in bed before i go to sleep. needing to use a comforter and all.
but my most important discovery today - my heater!!
now i know how the cavemen felt when they discovered fire.
it's so warm, it melts the icicles of my cold, frigid soul.
fuck, i'm gonna take a moment to stand by it right now.
...
oh god yeah that was good.
fucking oath.
crazy that it's winter but. all the people back home are breaking out the shirts and shorts, it's gonna get ass humid in toronto... cottage season. all that summer stuff.
oh well. i got the beach. i got australia. i got my internship and my job at the shack. and i got a pretty cute winter jacket. not gonna lie, i'm pretty cute in it. a consolation to having to wear that extra layer.
these steadier jobs will be good in helping make a bigger basegroup of friends. marc's leaving sunday. anj is leaving in a month. all i'll have is asa and patrick. and my aussie friends when they decide they can fit me in their lives. not trying to be bitter, but only travellers can understand each other's sitches - trying to make friends in some sort of desperation. hopefully some band can adopt me as the cute tambourine girl. or triangle girl. yeah that'd be better... less responsibility.
i just wanna be happy here. i reckon the beach will help. some sort of regularity in schedule and income should help immensely. esp after may raped me and took my wallet.
i mean, i've made about a grand a month since i've been here, and it's all been pissed away with my antics with lynn. not that i regret anything. we had chill times. times of our lives. but shit son, it's gonna take a while to rebuild. hopefully i can balance everything, what with my mum visiting me and all. yeah i spelled it the aussie way.
but yeah, as trite as it sounds, i really just wanna be happy. this last week has seen me stressed as. first having lynn leave. i don't do well with goodbyes :( ...and then having 50%, 60% and 25% worth of marks due. on top of everything, i've been sick. head cold, and chronic neck pains and tension headaches. all of which actually might have been a result of my stress. stupid psychosomatic symptoms.
it should go away next week, yeah i'm repeating myself.
i also want everyone at home to be happy. i've been told i'm not missing much in toronto by being here. but i do miss being able to chill with the peeps i love. i know everyone's lives are going on without me--time isn't standing still, and i'm not gonna be able to return to the way it was when i left canada. i just hope i can adapt and people will let me back in. i haven't forgotten about anyone, i hope i'm not forgotten either.
