is subpar at best. within a week of starting a job and an internship, i got replaced at both. the job - they thought someone was more 'promotionally orientated' than i. way to use fake words to fire me.
and the other one didn't think i was interested enough. it was a CASUAL internship. the first day my boss wasn't there. the second day i was ass tired and wanted to run my tasks the next day.
whatever. their loss. i'm still working for foster's. that's a pretty cushy aussie job. i'm not terribly concerned.i just applied to work at a pr agency, so hopefully something can come out of that.that's also casual.i don;t reckon it'd be a good idea to get a steady job. considering i only have 2 and a bit months here. only 2...shit son, time is flying.been catching up with b again, funny kid. glad things aren't complicated no more. i love drinking games. specially when they involve cards and not too much thinking.this is a weaksauce entry. weather's been weird. sunny now, a little brisk. but it's not raining anymore! i will def need a cuddle buddy to keep me warm soon, i guess that's the benefit of the weather being cold.god the ocean looks beautiful. i love seeing surfers catching a wave. so fucking hot.this entry is deteriorating quickfast.i'll peace for now
so i'm 21. and i celebrated my bday in the winter. weird.it's not winter by canadian standards in the least. obviously.heaps of rain and wind. but no snow and that's great. i love being 21. things are just going well right now.i can work regularly. in a cruisy place.have sweet mates. live on the beach.like usually winter depresses me to hell. but despite it being a little dreary, i live on the beach. i fucking love the ocean and i get to look at it everyday. i dont have to worry about homework or any school responsibilities. it's so chill.this winter... it's not winter. but it's prob gonna be my fave winter of life.
nikki is done her classes at uts. done. no more classes. yeah maybe a 50% doco due tues, but officially no more classes.!!!!so it's winter now. at 16 to 19ish degrees. yeah man. cold shit.
i've been shivering in bed before i go to sleep. needing to use a comforter and all.
but my most important discovery today - my heater!!now i know how the cavemen felt when they discovered fire.it's so warm, it melts the icicles of my cold, frigid soul.fuck, i'm gonna take a moment to stand by it right now....oh god yeah that was good.fucking oath.crazy that it's winter but. all the people back home are breaking out the shirts and shorts, it's gonna get ass humid in toronto... cottage season. all that summer stuff.oh well. i got the beach. i got australia. i got my internship and my job at the shack. and i got a pretty cute winter jacket. not gonna lie, i'm pretty cute in it. a consolation to having to wear that extra layer.these steadier jobs will be good in helping make a bigger basegroup of friends. marc's leaving sunday. anj is leaving in a month. all i'll have is asa and patrick. and my aussie friends when they decide they can fit me in their lives. not trying to be bitter, but only travellers can understand each other's sitches - trying to make friends in some sort of desperation. hopefully some band can adopt me as the cute tambourine girl. or triangle girl. yeah that'd be better... less responsibility. i just wanna be happy here. i reckon the beach will help. some sort of regularity in schedule and income should help immensely. esp after may raped me and took my wallet.
i mean, i've made about a grand a month since i've been here, and it's all been pissed away with my antics with lynn. not that i regret anything. we had chill times. times of our lives. but shit son, it's gonna take a while to rebuild. hopefully i can balance everything, what with my mum visiting me and all. yeah i spelled it the aussie way.but yeah, as trite as it sounds, i really just wanna be happy. this last week has seen me stressed as. first having lynn leave. i don't do well with goodbyes :( ...and then having 50%, 60% and 25% worth of marks due. on top of everything, i've been sick. head cold, and chronic neck pains and tension headaches. all of which actually might have been a result of my stress. stupid psychosomatic symptoms.it should go away next week, yeah i'm repeating myself.i also want everyone at home to be happy. i've been told i'm not missing much in toronto by being here. but i do miss being able to chill with the peeps i love. i know everyone's lives are going on without me--time isn't standing still, and i'm not gonna be able to return to the way it was when i left canada. i just hope i can adapt and people will let me back in. i haven't forgotten about anyone, i hope i'm not forgotten either.
idiot that i am, i left my purse on the 333 bus. it had my whole fucking life in syds in it:-passport-debit card and both credit cards-student id-medibank card-most importantly, my mobile...
luckily i realized this before it was too late, caught another 333 bus to the depot, and it was safely returned within 2 hours of me being a tool.everything was intact. shit son, i dont know what i woulda done if someone was a massive asshole and decided to deprive me of it.cunt.
but i got it, and all's good in the world again.
screw my passport, my mobile would've been devo to lose. it has my whole fucking life on it. despite it being ghetto as, it's my connection to everyone i've made contact with since i've been here. i wouldnt have any numbers any other way.nobody woulda been able to reach me for job stuffs, and vice versa. complete and utter madness woulda been strewn about my life.i'm just so happy that i got it back. and that i lost it on a bus and not on the street or somewhere untraceable.new respect for sydney busses i have now.
