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12:12 p.m.
iwantiwantiwant
-an apartment with at least 3 other cool roommates. hopefully co-ed house. yeah actually, definitely co-ed house.
-a rad bike that is mine and will safely take me round the streets of l.a.
-a survivable work placement on campus
-a great volunteer position with global inheritance/similar
-contribute to where's cool?
-exposure to l.a.'s music scene
-rad friends, solid friendships
-a good relationship with my cousin
-minimized tension with my mother
-zero contact with the uncle
-frozen yogurt!!!
-california driver's licence
-the ability to study/apply my smarts effectively and not waste it all
-balance
-body art
-a 'dan' of california. sigh. why does jbp have to trade coasts??
-a absence of awkwardness and drama
-making contacts, cultivating working relationships
-achievement of my dreams
-unbrokeness
-learning new skillz
-not quite growing up. but embracing adultescence
-live a healthy lifestyle
-use usc gym and/or take up other activity
-have fun
-being happy with my surroundings. finally
get outta my nightmares. getoutgetoutgetout
-not making any friends. at least friends that i like and feel myself with. i know it's not hard to make friends. but hey, in toronto it took me like 20 years to get it right
-mistaking coolness for good friendness
-i will lose focus
-deportation
-bankruptcy
-maternal resentment
-moving back to toronto
-effing up at my program
-the health care system screwing me over
-hollywood. ew. gross.
-shady folks
-drama
-getting held at the border
-unintentionally breaking the law and getting caught
-discovering that i don't want to get into communications and then starting from scratch from there
-something traumatic that will totally derail me mentally or otherwise
-unhealth
-getting stuck in limbo
-not realizing there are always options
how do i make sure shit gets done?
-refer to this list for perspective
-remember how hard i worked to get here, how long i've been dreaming and thinking about this. you made this decision for a reason, and not just australia or some other warm place
-set goals about what you want, how you can achieve them. and then do it
-no negativity
-remember what you're leaving, why you're leaving
-realize you are awesome, believe it, and make sure other people believe it too
:)
don't worry. it'll all work out.
-an apartment with at least 3 other cool roommates. hopefully co-ed house. yeah actually, definitely co-ed house.
-a rad bike that is mine and will safely take me round the streets of l.a.
-a survivable work placement on campus
-a great volunteer position with global inheritance/similar
-contribute to where's cool?
-exposure to l.a.'s music scene
-rad friends, solid friendships
-a good relationship with my cousin
-minimized tension with my mother
-zero contact with the uncle
-frozen yogurt!!!
-california driver's licence
-the ability to study/apply my smarts effectively and not waste it all
-balance
-body art
-a 'dan' of california. sigh. why does jbp have to trade coasts??
-a absence of awkwardness and drama
-making contacts, cultivating working relationships
-achievement of my dreams
-unbrokeness
-learning new skillz
-not quite growing up. but embracing adultescence
-live a healthy lifestyle
-use usc gym and/or take up other activity
-have fun
-being happy with my surroundings. finally
get outta my nightmares. getoutgetoutgetout
-not making any friends. at least friends that i like and feel myself with. i know it's not hard to make friends. but hey, in toronto it took me like 20 years to get it right
-mistaking coolness for good friendness
-i will lose focus
-deportation
-bankruptcy
-maternal resentment
-moving back to toronto
-effing up at my program
-the health care system screwing me over
-hollywood. ew. gross.
-shady folks
-drama
-getting held at the border
-unintentionally breaking the law and getting caught
-discovering that i don't want to get into communications and then starting from scratch from there
-something traumatic that will totally derail me mentally or otherwise
-unhealth
-getting stuck in limbo
-not realizing there are always options
how do i make sure shit gets done?
-refer to this list for perspective
-remember how hard i worked to get here, how long i've been dreaming and thinking about this. you made this decision for a reason, and not just australia or some other warm place
-set goals about what you want, how you can achieve them. and then do it
-no negativity
-remember what you're leaving, why you're leaving
-realize you are awesome, believe it, and make sure other people believe it too
:)
don't worry. it'll all work out.
